so… today has been one of the worst in a long long time. here’s why
definition of love:
love, noun:
a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.
(source: dictionary.com)
WTF?
okay… so mrs. bitchface has been funny. her and her ex are fine now, but she is really showing her hate for mr. bitchface which shows how she likes to ‘mingle about’. Strange i know, but at least she’s telling and not moaning on Facebook.
maybe, Mrs. Bitchface has left and in it’s place a nicer *insert-real-name* is returning? Who knows!
cookiedarkside!
so yerr… this is strange, will never happen, would freak me out, but i’d probably accept it if it ever happened to me. (the names in the dream were replaced with the real ones; once again if you know them, please do not speak of them to others; thanks)
so yerr… what happened was i think i was in school.. my dreams don’t work well.. they are vivid in the important aspects, just most of the other parts just aren’t and I seem to get them fucked up a little.
so sexybum runs up to me and tells me “cookiedarkside, i like guys now” in a hug and yeah i accepted it and it took off.
hmm… that’d fucking scare the shit out of me if that happened all like that.
cookiedarkside
so when i was in this parents evening… i had to be sat right next to sexybum…
EURGH.
REALLY NEED TO GET OVER IT
..
darksideofthecookie
i tell my mam something and she goes mad (about school) and organizes loads of shit.
i don’t want it and get moaned at if i say this.
why do i let myself out like that?
i don’t usually say things to my mam that she’ll go mad about.
i need to learn to never
well… this happened:
maybe i’m just a wreck or i just need a sleep in (for like the first time in 2 weeks!)
cookie
Well hello there peeps. Today was actually really good <3333333
I went to gay pride. Yeah, hopefully everything’s going to be uphill from now. My good friend came down and it was good seeing him again (you know who you are!).
Couldn’t buy guitar hero ;_; plus the whole place was full of dykes (fuck off, i don’t care i can’t spell it right if i’ve done it wrong), older guys (one freaked me out when i asked where the event was, i was like an hour early!) and others in a relationship.
But I was in the parade and the people were very lovely and I hope to go next year and it to be even more AMAZING!!!!!! (yeah, i tried to be kept out of camera as much as i can)
CookieDarkSide just had a heart attack nearly typing his real name :|
after some thought it seems that I will go to this event locally to me on Saturday with friends :)
might meet someone special :)
<333
now some people may know who the real identity of mr. bitchface is. if you do, please take respect in who this is and please do not tell anyone, including mr. bitchface himself. Thanks and please keep the identity of this a secret. Really, if anyone knew then they’d be trouble.
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Mr. Bitchface used to be a different person. This is quite a few years ago now. He helped me discover my identity, of who I am as a real person. This person is lost with no memory of what happened. Except, I do remember. I miss that person, not the current one in his body known as Mr. Bitchface.
He was the first guy who liked me. Yeah, at the time I didn’t really understand anything in the real world and didn’t understand how guys can actually love each other. This is how it never ended up a relationship, if I knew then I would allow it. I wouldn’t care about any of the fucking stories that happened after this.
He loved me much. Then we got told to never be allowed to see each other thanks to school and parents unable to take a dirty joke. Yeah, we were kinda sterotype emo kids. I don’t care. Yeah, MCR and that was the range.
Only afterwards, I was on holiday. I realized how much I missed just him. Only after that I’ve realized why I missed him. I loved him too. I just wasn’t aware, as I had never fallen in love before this.
Yes, basically I haven’t truly fallen for a single girl in my life.
This doesn’t make me a freak, just I don’t know.
Thanks for understanding,
cookiedarkside
